Have you ever gotten exactly what you were hoping for? How did you feel? Most people would probably think "joyous", "thankful", or "awesome". But who would think "apprehensive"? That's how I feel right now.
I met a girl a couple days ago, and it's already starting to get serious. Most of you men may scoff but truth is deep down I've been wanting a girlfriend for a while and from the first time I saw this girl smile I knew I was kind of into her. So I asked for the digits and when I actually contacted this girl the sparks just flew. We made a speed-of-light connection and it just felt right. And that's about the time my brain chimed in.
Now, as I say, thoughts are powerful. Positive and Negative thoughts can lead to positive and negative actions. So when I think something like, "This is too good to be true, it can't be for real," I really wanna stab my brain with a Q-Tip because now there's a shadow of a doubt about whether this is the right call.
To quote a bit of Country music wisdom, "Love ain't a thinking thing." if I just follow my heart then whatever this crazy journey takes me on I can enjoy the scenery instead of worrying what the destination is.
I want to double my efforts to be able to let go of these seeds of doubt that are planted by my negative thoughts. It's my strong belief that everyone is entitled to the benefit of doubt. The way I see the world, most people are good and shouldn't be treated like men and not hooligans. That's the way I hope I always see the world would see me.
(After I wrote this I went into this with reckless abandon and loved deeper then I ever did in my life. I didn't hold back even for a second. It didn't work out. And I regret nothing.)
